Sunday, November 12, 2006

different flavours and smells

So I made my first Mallauach - and you should have been there to taste it :-)
Hummus as well.

And my beloved Ruth and myself got our New Dinning Table. I guess it will make me having more quality time with the pots and pans in our kitchen.

You just have to be here :)

Have a look at the pics.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

New in Dublin

Hi guys,

I got some very angry notes writing the last post in Hebrew, I just wasn't in the right mood to write those stuff in English. Anyways it's just telling how sad I was leaving my family and friends behind and carrying my whole life in only 3 big suitcases.

As for now I'm much better. Since I got to Dublin things are going pretty well. The city is just as I remembers it. Cozy, welcoming and very beautiful. The vibes in the city are so great. It reminds me of Tel Aviv that I like so much.

Being lucky enough to land into a constant residence is much blessed. I arrived and my flatmate my beloved Ruth is not here yet. Leaving me a very detailed manual to operate everything in the house was essential as things are so much different than they are in Israel. It's nice and scary at the same time. As some of you might know me I am a person of changes. This is my kick. I love it sooo much. And this is probably the biggest change I ever had in my life.
Not yet realizing all its aspects for the moment it's wonderful.

Since I got here I was mostly busy with finding myself around the flat and the city. Having very few friends here (for the time being) gives me the time for myself. Getting up relaxed in the mornings, reading, shopping, cooking food are the privileges of the moment. Surely when I start working time will become a rare resource.

Going to the immigration office and queuing for more than 3 hours reminded me that for the time being I'm temporary in this country. I'm no different than the other foreings that arrived here for work.

Battery on my laptop is running low and lazy me I wont go upstairs to fetch the charger I will say Shalom.

I made a special folder for pics I will take here...


Sunday, October 15, 2006

On my way to Dublin (hebrew)

אני יושב עכשיו במטוס ולא תאמינו אבל אני בוכה. עבר הרבה זמן מאז הפעם האחרונה שבכיתי וזה מאוד משחרר.
אני עדיין לא יודע למה בדיוק אני בוכה, אני מאמין שזה שילוב של כמה דברים...
אני כבר מאוד מתגעגע לכולם. למשפחה, לחברים ולכל מה שהכרתי 22 שנים. זה אולי נשמע קיטשי אבל זו האמת.
יכול להיות מאוד שאם הייתי יודע מראש שככה אני הולך להרגיש, כנראה שהייתי מוותר על כל החוויה מראש. ואולי עדיף שלא ידעתי, כי עמוק בפנים אין לי ספק שזה צעד מאוד מאוד חשוב וחוויה. היה לי שבוע מאוד קשה. כל מי שמכיר אותי יותר מיום אחד יודע שאת הרגשות האמיתיים לא רואים אצלי כ"כ מהר. כמו אבא שלי. זה טוב אבל זה גם רע - ועם זה אני צריך לחיות.

לא ציפיתי למכתבי פרידה מהאנשים שהכי חשובים לי בעולם - זה משהו שלא קרה לי וזה נוגע בי ומעציב אותי וגורם לי לבכי של צער מעורב עם שמחה.

אני מנסה לשכנע את עצמי שהעצב והגעגועים יתמתנו עם הזמן, זה גורם לי להפסיק לבכות מדי פעם. ואז אני שוב חושב על זה ומבין שאין מקום כמו הבית. עוד שעה וחצי אני כבר נכנס לדירה החדשה שלי. ייקח לי זמן אם בכלל יקרה לקרוא לזה בית.
כי נכון לעכשיו בית יש לי רק אחד. ורק במקום אחד. ישראל.
החיים שלי מורכבים מהרבה אנשים שמאוד חשובים לי. ואני מאמין שלרובם אני חשוב באותה המידה. התקופה שאבלה רחוק מכולם היא תקופה שאף פעם לא אוכל להחזיר אחורה ואני מאוד מקווה שאף-פעם גם לא ארצה.
שאלו אותי הרבה פעמים מתי אני חוזר? כמה זמן אני מתכנן להיות בחו"ל?
האמת היא שאני ממש לא יודע. אבל אני כן יודע שלהרפתקה הזו יש כמה מטרות עיקריות - החוויה, הקריירה ועוד כמה בדרך.
החוויה נגמרת די מהר. בייחוד שהחוויה הזו לא כוללת את האנשים שאני הכי אוהב. ואז זה לא כזה כיף.
שאר הדברים צריכים להיות באמת יוצאים מגדר הרגיל כדי להשאיר אותי באירלנד (או בכל מקום אחר) יותר מדי זמן. כרגע אני לא רואה שום דבר כזה בפתח.
מאז שאני זוכר את עצמי הייתי אחד שבד"כ עושה מה שבא לו. בדרכי דיפלומטיה ובלי לשבור את הכלים - אבל עדיין הייתי עושה כל מה שרציתי.
היום אני מבין יותר מתמיד שההחלטות שאני עושה משפיעות מאוד על האנשים שסובבים אותי.
אני מרגיש עכשיו ובטוח שבכל לילה, לפני שאלך לישון, אבדוק עם עצמי האם היום שעבר בלי כל מה שהשארתי מאוחר מקדם אותי לאנשהו (לא רק קריירה!) ובכל בוקר שאקום אני אזכיר לעצמי שבעצם השארתי הרבה מאחורה והיום אהיה חיוני מאי-פעם. אני לא מתכוון להלחיץ את עצמי אלא רק לזכור. את כולכם.


Thursday, September 14, 2006

Back home

It've been a while since I last wrote anything here.
I guess it's just my laziness and the weird state of mind I'm having recently. (I found myself sayin it too often like a broken record).

The anticipation I expressed from my last post is still on. But I do try to bare in mind that it brings along good things and bad things at the same time.

Like for instance, I cant really recall the last time I've spent so much time thinking (yes I do that - how weird) and spending quality time with my wee sister and parents. Long hours at home without any purpose when u wake up noonish, takes me back to my post-short-military-service period of time.

Comparing - moving abroad Vs. Leaving the army. (or going out of the closet - if I was ever there)

It's a quite interesting equation as for my self being-wise. Both are so called "brave decision" that do a great change to one's life and can bring along serious consequences. But what surprised me the most in both decisions I've made is that I figured out that my close circle of family and friends is a gift. They always surprise me with their so consideration responses and behavior. The kick off was my out of the closet for my family at the age of 17. And it goes on with everything I do in life. That is the place to thanks some one (a he god or a she god or the angels or my other me in my previous life).

Being far from home is an experience I will live shortly. I cannot even imagine how it will be like. And as you all might know me you can reckon the I depresses it and a great shock is expected. I will surely tell you about it in a week or two - or three - I stopped counting. Shortly I plan to denote a whole chapter to the people in my life.

I do motivate you to have a look at my webalbum. You can write down talkbacks so we can memorize the experiences that we might forget.

Sep 13, 2006 - 14 Photos

You all better feel hugged,

Friday, August 25, 2006


Sometimes I'm feeling sorry for not forming my own diary long long time ago... It would have been a prefect tool for a guy like me - one who remembers nothing. And I've gone through so many experiences I would like to memorize. But I wont cry over spilt milk...

It've been few months so far for some quality time and to lazy around like a lion after his lunch time - in my case it was whole days.
Working permits are sucks. Having no exact date for my relocation makes me a bit helpless. The feeling that something should come in the future really holds you down. It's just like the feeling when you're having a relationship that ought to end up long time ago, but you always find excuses for postponing it. Then looking back you feel so shitty for wasting so much time with this bloody partner.

My best friend Sharla (in the picture below) always reminds me that life is not a race. That there is no need to rush. One should not chase after getting things and tick things up on the list. Life should be pleasant and joyful. I believe I realized so only a year ago. I'm only 22 and I've achieved much more than people my age did. "We live l
ife only once". It might sound obvious, but looking back in my life I've spent too many days chasing after things. Chasing after money, love, better position at work and fancier clothes... I want to believe that moving to a peaceful place like Ireland will bring me to another state of mind.
Deep inside I truly want to be more peaceful, I want to wake up in the morning and to have a coffee before leaving to work. Then coming back home to relax rather than going on to visit friends or on to other events. It might be a dream and my tempor will never allow that, but I believe that some can be changed...

By my predictions I had to be in Ireland a month ago. I'm so happy it hasn't happened and that I'm still here. For the first time ever I became an uncle. Though you all know sometimes I find it hard to express feelings I'm feeling a very lucky guy. So lucky I wouldn't want anything in my life to change or to happen differently.

Having extra hours a day allocated for doing nothing I've became addicted to several TV shows. Asking me few months ago and I would reckon there is no chance that such will happen. Not to me. But it did and I have no regrets. Sometimes I found myself bursting into tears when something touchy happens. When Oprah or Ricky Lake show poor people.

My mom always said I'm a sensitive and a gentle guy. What do you think she ment by saying so??


Thursday, August 24, 2006

Getting started...

First thing I had to consider was if this blog will be in English or in Hebrew.
Even though in Hebrew it would have been much easier and nicer to convey my thoughts, writing it in English will save me extra hours to rewrite it to English for my non Hebrew speaking friends. Not mentioning that if so I presume my lazyness would've brought the absence of either.

Since this blog is totally mine, I will allow myself to skip spell-checking and grammar stuff.. So deal with it...

The second next thing I found myself thinking about since the very moment I've decided to write things up here was LOVE LIFE... Given I will have some of those in Ireland (unlike the dry period of time in Israel) will I write it here?
I guess it will take me a while till I'll decide about this matter.... Anyways I haven't decided yet whether my family will be lucky too see it...

That's all for the meanwhile I have nothing thrilling to write till I will get to my final destination with 1 way ticket. Dublin, Ireland.